I don't know if I am the only one who experiences this but there are times when I have something to say or something to tell someone when the words will run through my head a thousand times over. I plan out what I would say like an editor of a newspaper making revisions adding things and removing things until I think I have it perfect.
Then in the moment something happens where a bubble within me bursts and everything is forgotten and I just sigh then breathe and in that moment my mind is clear. I am completely calm and all pretense drops and my words become heavy yet understood entirely with little thought as the truth comes out, sometimes with a profound tone others with an air of prophetic wisdom that seems to spell the end.
In the moments that follow the words hang in the air often bringing epiphany for myself as much as the person they were intended for. In these rare moments I am incredibly sedate and often air feelings I didn't realise I had yet once spoken I find that I mean every word.
These moments of sedation as you may sense from the tone of my writing are often those borne of negative feelings or situations that have negative repercussions on me - most often being stress. Perhaps then the moment when the bubble bursts, this is my mind giving up, abandoning all reason and logic and letting go, what comes next is spoken from the heart, uncensored and unyielding.
Then in the moment something happens where a bubble within me bursts and everything is forgotten and I just sigh then breathe and in that moment my mind is clear. I am completely calm and all pretense drops and my words become heavy yet understood entirely with little thought as the truth comes out, sometimes with a profound tone others with an air of prophetic wisdom that seems to spell the end.
In the moments that follow the words hang in the air often bringing epiphany for myself as much as the person they were intended for. In these rare moments I am incredibly sedate and often air feelings I didn't realise I had yet once spoken I find that I mean every word.
These moments of sedation as you may sense from the tone of my writing are often those borne of negative feelings or situations that have negative repercussions on me - most often being stress. Perhaps then the moment when the bubble bursts, this is my mind giving up, abandoning all reason and logic and letting go, what comes next is spoken from the heart, uncensored and unyielding.
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