Kelly Rowland :: Stole

I find with the more days that pass in this challenge it is becoming ever more difficult to escape reality and stick solely to fictional events.  Tragedy is as much a part of Human Life as Happiness.  It is often said that you have to reach your lowest point before you can reach the highest, that it is always darkest before dawn etc.

A fair few years ago I reached my lowest point and during that time I entertained some very dark thoughts and considered escaping life entirely.  I stopped short of ending it all and thankfully I am still here.  I am not going to lie, there have been low times since but none have seen me return to that depth.  Having been there once before I pit all that I experience against it and always remember in my mind that I have been through worse.  That sometimes scares me though as it makes me worry that one day I may experience something so hard to handle that it pushes me deeper than I have ever gone before and in that moment I might do something that would be the end.  These are thoughts that thankfully do not enter my mind these days.  As I said before in other posts I have a group of friends who are the greatest support, who form the pillars upon which I stand tall.

I know this whole thing sounds cliché but that's just the way I look at the world.  Those tired clichés that we all perceive at one point were dreamt up by writers and thinkers and with those artists I share the mentality and the belief that sometimes just sometimes life can truly become a fairytale.  The video I share today is a track by Miss Kelly Rowland called Stole, in which a young man takes his life and shocks the world.  I only have one more thing to say to all those who read this and I mean this with all my heart and soul I implore you to listen:

Someone who is truly depressed and truly unhappy and contemplates these thoughts, will not make them known.  It is often said that Suicide is a cry for attention this is not the case, if you reach that lowest of lows and you are truly unhappy and you want to end it - you will.  There is no attention seeking here, they will be gone, they will be lost and the world will never know what they could have been.  We wrap ourselves up in our own lives so much we don't always stop to look at the people around us and see the emotion and the heartache and the tears.  A smile does not mean someone is happy, pay attention to how they behave when they think no-one is watching them, then and only then will you see right through to them.