Feeling Emotional

I'm not having a good day.  In fact I'm feeling quite down at the moment.  Like always though when I feel like this I seek an outlet to vent my emotions.  That outlet changes sometimes I write, sometimes I draw, sometimes I cook but in all these cases the outlet is a vent for emotions that are rooted in my actions.  Today though it is not my actions that have brought me down but the actions of others.  When this is the case I try to escape with somewhat more passive outlets, watching movies, playing games or listening to music.

At the moment I am listening to music - 'Memory Of A Dream' by Tenishia featuring Chris Jones.  The song is quite sad really but in moments like this it's sad music that I listen to, I don't quite like bottling things up, I prefer to stop and let myself feel what I need to feel so I can move on.  I know to some this can be seen as a form of wallowing self-pity and paint a negative view of someone but the truth is, as negative the view is, we are creatures of emotion and our lives are defined by the ups as well as the downs, so I take no shame in this at all.

If show me your life, and it is one filled with smiles and never a single moment of upset, sadness, or general moodiness then I'll show you the door.  I do not trust people who only show their positive emotions and deny the negative ones exist.  I am not wishing ill fate on you it is just a fact of life that shit happens.  People who smile all the time are hiding something.  Whether its something their afraid of the rest of the world knowing, or something they are afraid to admit to themselves, in either case your silence hurts, you more than anyone else.  If you never open your heart you will never truly experience love or compassion.

So the next time you feel sad or down or upset, screw the idea that you have to smile for the world, you're allowed to feel emotion, be sad, be down, be upset - you'd be surprised who actually cares.  I know some people exploit this, I know some people seek attention from anyone or anything they can, I know that not everyone who expresses emotion is sincere, but this, all of this can be applied to happiness too, there are people who portray false positive emotion in the name of seeking attention too - that fact doesn't stop you being happy when you truly feel it now does it?  So why should that stop you expressing the opposite when you truly feel it?

Some of the most influential people throughout history, artists, musicians, philosophers, humanitarians, and ordinary people who had just had enough, were empowered by their emotions.  We have great musicians who wrote great music borne of happiness, sadness, anger, frustration, confusion, love, and all that lie in between.  We have artists who created great works that have inspired countless generations their motivations are equally as varied and represent both sides of the spectrum, positive and negative, arguably the negative can sometime be so much more powerful, a song of love is moving, but there is something deeply moving and intimate about a song of heartbreak.

Never be afraid to feel your emotions.