Selling Yourself

If you can sell anything then you will want for nothing in this life.  That seems to be the reality of the commercialised society we live in.  We sell ourselves every day and if you don't try hard enough you are seen as selling yourself short.  Every day in every way every thing we do becomes more and more about selling ourselves.

I wrote this blog because I wanted to share my thoughts and feelings with the world.  I wrote it in many ways as a diary for myself that I can look back on and see where I was at a point in time, what was on my mind and how I felt about it.  I try to be open, as is reasonably possible without getting too specific or too personal in a way that would put myself or anyone else in danger.  I avoid naming names where possible because I know not everyone is comfortable sharing so much with the world.  There is a pressure from some people however to do more and go further.  I don't want to do this.  This blog was only ever a hobby.  I never intended this to be a career and I don't want it to be.

The idea of selling yourself however invades every part of our lives.  Job interviews are at their core your attempt to sell yourself to a potential employer quite literally for the job and salary offered.  While I can understand in that situation why you would want to sell yourself the same can't be said for every part of our lives where this mentality has taken hold.  Dating and trying to find someone you want to be in a relationship with for example has become the same process.  You have to sell yourself to someone else and convince them that you're the one for them.  Whatever happened to self worth?  Whatever happened to the idea that someone else should be able to see you and want you without you having to sell yourself?  Whatever happened to the idea that you are desirable, and not just something you have convinced someone else to buy?

I don't want to sell myself short, I don't want to sell myself at all.  I've been through the riles of rejection and I've been through the heartache of someone wanting you then casting you aside when something better came along.  I've been through the pain of unrequited love and those that used and abused that love for their own amusement and their own gain.  I'm tired of giving myself to people who don't deserve it.  I'd rather be alone than be hurt like that.  I haven't given up on love.  I know it exists and I have felt it.  If giving my love to someone else has taught me anything it's that someone who truly loves me will never leave me wanting more and will never play games with me.

You should not have to haggle for a lover.  You should not have to sacrifice who you are.  Your faults are as much a part of you as your charms.  Trying to hide them is futile, they will only surface in the end and if they aren't something that your lover can see passed then you're going to lose them.  You can't rely on the idea that the more time they invest the more tolerant they will become because that's a false sense of security.  The sooner they get to know the real you the sooner you find out whether they love you for who you are, or whether they loved the idea they were sold.