Love Hurts

I once told someone I loved them, and at the time I meant it.  What I didn't know at the time was that although the emotion, the connection, and the happiness I felt were stronger than I had ever felt before, they weren't the strongest I would ever feel.  When I look back on that time in my life I feel bad for him because I don't know if I really did love him, or if I just liked him a lot.  In any case we eventually parted ways and nothing came of what we had, despite what we both felt.  The fact nothing came of it is what makes me question my feelings.  That might just be wishful thinking - wishing that I didn't make a mistake saying it.

Years later there had been others I had said it to as well.  With each one however the intensity of what I felt grew.  When I look back in comparison the emotions aren't really comparable.  I have not said it to every guy I liked.  In fact there have been a few I really liked who said it to me first and I couldn't say it back.  I'm a firm believer that when it's right, you know it.  That, and I believe that true love is requited.  I've been in unrequited love and in my own belief it is soul destroying.  When you long to be with someone and you have such powerful emotions that inspire deep rooted feelings for someone it can make you feel so happy, and in every moment that it is apparent they don't feel the same way, another piece of your heart is ripped out.  Love hurts, it's true, it's also the most dangerous weapon, because it can be completely unseen, it can't be controlled, it can't be stopped, it can't be neutralised, and it can kill you - quite literally, there is a condition known as 'Broken Heart Syndrome', it's medical name is 'Takotsubo Cardiomyopathy' - it gained the nickname broken heart syndrome because it can be triggered "by emotional stress, such as the death of a loved one, a break-up, or constant anxiety" - the heart literally swells and the cardiac muscle weakens.

My question of the day is have you ever loved somebody so much it hurt?